The Reflection Will Guide Us

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released October 10, 2015

Sam Scholten- guitar, guitar synth, keys, vocals
Doug Litton- bass
Dave Roberts- drums

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Track Name: Wish I Could Have You
There are so many things that I wish I could say
So many times that I wish I could spend with you
So many circumstances getting in the way
What I want is so damn wrong, there's nothing I can do

But that won't help me sleep at night
And I just can't convince myself that it's all right
I tell you I'm all right, but that's just an act
You just don't know what I'm holding back

I wish that I could have you

I bite my tongue so hard, knowing you've made all kinds of plans
Hour by hour, I pull myself together with no choice but to understand
Piece by piece, it rips out everything I am inside
There's nothing left I want in this world than for you to see my eyes

But that won't help me sleep at night
And I just can't convince myself that it's all right
I tell you I'm all right, but that's just an act
You just don't know what I'm holding back

I wish that I could have you
Track Name: Tell Me Why
Don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'd have to think about it

I'm sure he fits just right
Night after magic night
Much better than I ever could,
I suppose

So tell me why
Am I wondering what she's doing tonight
Tell me why
Am I drinking her off my mind
Tell me why
Are her messages still in my phone
Tell me why
Without her
No matter who I'm out with
I still feel so alone

I'd stop this backward motion
If I let go of the notion

That happiness I'll never find
Unless she's right here by my side
And somehow, life's travails will fall behind
I suppose

So tell me why
Am I wondering what she's doing tonight
Tell me why
Am I drinking her off my mind
Tell me why
Are her pictures still in my phone
Tell me why
Without her
No matter who I'm out with
I still feel so alone

I should be living like a king
So many fish in this vast sea

And not give up on life too soon
Measured out in coffee spoons
Embittered, facing self-inflicted doom
I suppose

So tell me why
Am I wondering what she's doing tonight
Tell me why
Am I drinking her off my mind
Tell me why
Is her number still in my phone
Tell me why
Without her...
Track Name: Worst Night Of My Life
Worst night of my life
My whole future is gone
The one I love
Is lost

How am I supposed to feel?
This whole thing seems unreal
Like I'm
Not even here

I used to think life had a plan
But now I just don't understand
The worst night of my life

Best thing in my life
She never did deserve
The fate
That she was dealt

Disease, it takes away
Everything you are
Yourself
Your dignity

What used to seem big is now so small
Now nothing matters much at all
The worst night of my life

Worst night of my life
My whole future is gone
The one I love
Is lost

How am I supposed to feel?
This whole thing seems unreal
Like I'm
Not even here

I used to think life had a plan
But now I just don't understand
The worst night of my life
Track Name: (Baby I'm) Lost
I get around, but I belong nowhere
I got nothing left but to start the next adventure

And there is no escape
From this state of anomie
This groundlessness is draining
The life straight out of me

I got amazing friends, but I still feel so alone
The frost keeps burning; nowhere feels like home

I ain't got no one to love
And nobody loves me
This emptiness is choking
The life straight out of me

Not sure what I see when I look in the mirror
I see a decent guy. Perhaps you see different.

I ain't got no one to love
(How do you say I'm OK)
And nobody loves me
(To an answering machine)
This emptiness is choking
(How do you say I miss you?)
The life straight out of me
Track Name: So Happy
She kept us all in stitches
Telling her tales to the crowd
And I was laughing so hard
I was crying out loud

I said I'm so happy
I just could fly
To my imminent death
From a building in the sky

She said he was exciting and fun
She said his eyes shone bright like the sun
She said he was the only one
All right

And I'll bite my tongue
When they both hit the ground
Although the way that he hurts her
Gets all over town
Track Name: Cloaking Device
A cloaking device
For easy concealing
A cloaking device
To hide what I'm feeling

Because I'm sick and tired
Of this silly disguise
Concealing the truth
Till it feels like such lies

I'm tired
I'm weary
This just has to stop

A cloaking device
For easier living
A cloaking device
For keeping it hidden

Because I'm sick and tired
Of dropping hints
That are so oblique
That they're always missed

I'm tired
I'm weary
This just has to stop

A cloaking device
Eluding the searches
A cloaking device
To keep me from bursting

Because I'm sick and tired
When my words come out wrong
And the phrases distort
Till the meaning is gone

I'm tired
I'm weary
This just has to stop
Track Name: Ghost
So easy for her
To get under my skin
So easy for her
To wear my nerves thin

I want to make your ghost forget me
I keep trying,
But she'll never let me.

She never seems
To consider my needs
Always thinking of herself
While my heart bleeds

It's not about her
It's all about me
I'm feeling suffocated
And I think it's time
She set me free
Track Name: He Thinks He Saves Her
The white knight rides again
Alone he fights this fight
Out to win his damsel fair
So helpless in his mind

The white knight rides again
His valor he must prove
She's trapped on a pedestal
She has no room to move

He's bested by his rivals
Who flout his knightly rules
The village elders tell him
He fights the fight of fools

But they don't know the blood he spilt
Or mountains that he climbs
One thing keeps eluding him
He lives in modern times

He thinks he saves her
But little does he understand
Track Name: Oceangoing
Right at this moment
When I'm feeling alright
And I've picked up the pieces
Of the rest of my life

Just when I've forgotten
All I've tried to forget
You come back and tell me you miss me
And how much I meant

Why should I be there
Whenever you need a friend
I moved on like you did long ago
To keep from reaching the end

But whenever your lonely days
Turn into nights
That's when you come back from the past
To ruin my life

If I could charter an oceangoing yacht
I'd travel everywhere you're not
Mozambique or Monaco
I really don't care where I go

So many wondrous ports of call
Where I won't see your face at all
I'd circumnavigate a world
Much bigger than the one you destroyed

If I could charter an oceangoing yacht
I'd travel everywhere you're not
The destination is the voyage itself
Always underway to somewhere else

You were always scared of the sea
So that's a nice safe home to me
And if a rogue wave swallows me
Whatever happens next
That's alright with me
Track Name: Rocket To The Face
Instrumental interlude
Track Name: You Need Me To Need You
It's alright
If it takes all night
To knock these feelings back
Through all means in sight

It just won't pay
For me to say
How up or down I feel
The outcome's all the same

And I need you
And you need me to need you
But that's all

I wait in line
It's here I'll die
But I can't walk away
I still wonder why

My guard's up
Takes all I've got
You relish every time I slip
And let things out

You criticize the ways I try to deal
I hope one day you feel the way I feel

I could drive
To the ocean in my sleep
Each mile away from you
Brings slow sweet escape

Because it's alright
If it takes all night
To get out of this box
Through all means in sight
Track Name: She Never Loved Me
Searching for explanations
As many as I can find
Sorting through complications
Racked up in my mind

Recalling situations
Happening this year
Then my big revelation
Things got harshly clear

She never loved me

I'm grateful for this closure
Badly as it stings
The truth has set me free
Although it clipped my wings

No more regrets
Of so-called chances gone to waste
An existential vacuum
Is all that took their place

And all this time
She was only being nice
Then she got on with her life
And never thought about me twice

Perhaps for just one moment
She cared about how I felt
But it's most likely that
She was just avoiding guilt

I feel so empty and destroyed
As you can guess
I try to keep my head in check
Avoiding bitterness

I've got all I need to
Rise above it all and move ahead
The world is mine
If I could just get out of bed
Track Name: Chode Designator
Instrumental interlude
Track Name: The Tim Version
I'm losing sleep
Each time
You say goodnight
Now get some sleep
We've been through
So much
I've seen you shine
In times like these

Sometimes I wonder
If a guy like me
Could ever
Make you happy
As happy
As you deserve

You say
You love me
Don't know what for
As a friend
Or whatever
I don't know
Anymore
But lately
I wanted
Something more

What if
I told you
What kind
Of mess
Would that make
It's never
The right time
Maybe
It's a big mistake

So I look
For reasons
Any excuse
To talk to you
Because
All those moments
Are the things
That get me through

So I
Keep it hidden
I'm not sure if
That's good
Or bad
But lately I get
La filer à l'anglaise
And it's gotten
Kind of sad

So maybe I
Go to sleep
With records on

Some breakthrough's gotta happen
When side 2 of Tim comes on
Track Name: The Most Gracious Exit I Can Muster
Instrumental postlude