1. |
Wish I Could Have You
04:08
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There are so many things that I wish I could say
So many times that I wish I could spend with you
So many circumstances getting in the way
What I want is so damn wrong, there's nothing I can do
But that won't help me sleep at night
And I just can't convince myself that it's all right
I tell you I'm all right, but that's just an act
You just don't know what I'm holding back
I wish that I could have you
I bite my tongue so hard, knowing you've made all kinds of plans
Hour by hour, I pull myself together with no choice but to understand
Piece by piece, it rips out everything I am inside
There's nothing left I want in this world than for you to see my eyes
But that won't help me sleep at night
And I just can't convince myself that it's all right
I tell you I'm all right, but that's just an act
You just don't know what I'm holding back
I wish that I could have you
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2. |
Tell Me Why
03:57
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Don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'd have to think about it
I'm sure he fits just right
Night after magic night
Much better than I ever could,
I suppose
So tell me why
Am I wondering what she's doing tonight
Tell me why
Am I drinking her off my mind
Tell me why
Are her messages still in my phone
Tell me why
Without her
No matter who I'm out with
I still feel so alone
I'd stop this backward motion
If I let go of the notion
That happiness I'll never find
Unless she's right here by my side
And somehow, life's travails will fall behind
I suppose
So tell me why
Am I wondering what she's doing tonight
Tell me why
Am I drinking her off my mind
Tell me why
Are her pictures still in my phone
Tell me why
Without her
No matter who I'm out with
I still feel so alone
I should be living like a king
So many fish in this vast sea
And not give up on life too soon
Measured out in coffee spoons
Embittered, facing self-inflicted doom
I suppose
So tell me why
Am I wondering what she's doing tonight
Tell me why
Am I drinking her off my mind
Tell me why
Is her number still in my phone
Tell me why
Without her...
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3. |
Worst Night Of My Life
04:29
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Worst night of my life
My whole future is gone
The one I love
Is lost
How am I supposed to feel?
This whole thing seems unreal
Like I'm
Not even here
I used to think life had a plan
But now I just don't understand
The worst night of my life
Best thing in my life
She never did deserve
The fate
That she was dealt
Disease, it takes away
Everything you are
Yourself
Your dignity
What used to seem big is now so small
Now nothing matters much at all
The worst night of my life
Worst night of my life
My whole future is gone
The one I love
Is lost
How am I supposed to feel?
This whole thing seems unreal
Like I'm
Not even here
I used to think life had a plan
But now I just don't understand
The worst night of my life
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4. |
(Baby I'm) Lost
02:17
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I get around, but I belong nowhere
I got nothing left but to start the next adventure
And there is no escape
From this state of anomie
This groundlessness is draining
The life straight out of me
I got amazing friends, but I still feel so alone
The frost keeps burning; nowhere feels like home
I ain't got no one to love
And nobody loves me
This emptiness is choking
The life straight out of me
Not sure what I see when I look in the mirror
I see a decent guy. Perhaps you see different.
I ain't got no one to love
(How do you say I'm OK)
And nobody loves me
(To an answering machine)
This emptiness is choking
(How do you say I miss you?)
The life straight out of me
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5. |
So Happy
02:06
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She kept us all in stitches
Telling her tales to the crowd
And I was laughing so hard
I was crying out loud
I said I'm so happy
I just could fly
To my imminent death
From a building in the sky
She said he was exciting and fun
She said his eyes shone bright like the sun
She said he was the only one
All right
And I'll bite my tongue
When they both hit the ground
Although the way that he hurts her
Gets all over town
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6. |
Cloaking Device
03:38
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A cloaking device
For easy concealing
A cloaking device
To hide what I'm feeling
Because I'm sick and tired
Of this silly disguise
Concealing the truth
Till it feels like such lies
I'm tired
I'm weary
This just has to stop
A cloaking device
For easier living
A cloaking device
For keeping it hidden
Because I'm sick and tired
Of dropping hints
That are so oblique
That they're always missed
I'm tired
I'm weary
This just has to stop
A cloaking device
Eluding the searches
A cloaking device
To keep me from bursting
Because I'm sick and tired
When my words come out wrong
And the phrases distort
Till the meaning is gone
I'm tired
I'm weary
This just has to stop
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7. |
Ghost
03:22
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So easy for her
To get under my skin
So easy for her
To wear my nerves thin
I want to make your ghost forget me
I keep trying,
But she'll never let me.
She never seems
To consider my needs
Always thinking of herself
While my heart bleeds
It's not about her
It's all about me
I'm feeling suffocated
And I think it's time
She set me free
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8. |
He Thinks He Saves Her
02:08
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The white knight rides again
Alone he fights this fight
Out to win his damsel fair
So helpless in his mind
The white knight rides again
His valor he must prove
She's trapped on a pedestal
She has no room to move
He's bested by his rivals
Who flout his knightly rules
The village elders tell him
He fights the fight of fools
But they don't know the blood he spilt
Or mountains that he climbs
One thing keeps eluding him
He lives in modern times
He thinks he saves her
But little does he understand
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9. |
Oceangoing
04:18
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Right at this moment
When I'm feeling alright
And I've picked up the pieces
Of the rest of my life
Just when I've forgotten
All I've tried to forget
You come back and tell me you miss me
And how much I meant
Why should I be there
Whenever you need a friend
I moved on like you did long ago
To keep from reaching the end
But whenever your lonely days
Turn into nights
That's when you come back from the past
To ruin my life
If I could charter an oceangoing yacht
I'd travel everywhere you're not
Mozambique or Monaco
I really don't care where I go
So many wondrous ports of call
Where I won't see your face at all
I'd circumnavigate a world
Much bigger than the one you destroyed
If I could charter an oceangoing yacht
I'd travel everywhere you're not
The destination is the voyage itself
Always underway to somewhere else
You were always scared of the sea
So that's a nice safe home to me
And if a rogue wave swallows me
Whatever happens next
That's alright with me
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10. |
Rocket To The Face
01:28
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Instrumental interlude
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11. |
You Need Me To Need You
03:55
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It's alright
If it takes all night
To knock these feelings back
Through all means in sight
It just won't pay
For me to say
How up or down I feel
The outcome's all the same
And I need you
And you need me to need you
But that's all
I wait in line
It's here I'll die
But I can't walk away
I still wonder why
My guard's up
Takes all I've got
You relish every time I slip
And let things out
You criticize the ways I try to deal
I hope one day you feel the way I feel
I could drive
To the ocean in my sleep
Each mile away from you
Brings slow sweet escape
Because it's alright
If it takes all night
To get out of this box
Through all means in sight
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12. |
She Never Loved Me
03:36
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Searching for explanations
As many as I can find
Sorting through complications
Racked up in my mind
Recalling situations
Happening this year
Then my big revelation
Things got harshly clear
She never loved me
I'm grateful for this closure
Badly as it stings
The truth has set me free
Although it clipped my wings
No more regrets
Of so-called chances gone to waste
An existential vacuum
Is all that took their place
And all this time
She was only being nice
Then she got on with her life
And never thought about me twice
Perhaps for just one moment
She cared about how I felt
But it's most likely that
She was just avoiding guilt
I feel so empty and destroyed
As you can guess
I try to keep my head in check
Avoiding bitterness
I've got all I need to
Rise above it all and move ahead
The world is mine
If I could just get out of bed
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13. |
Chode Designator
00:59
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Instrumental interlude
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14. |
The Tim Version
03:53
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I'm losing sleep
Each time
You say goodnight
Now get some sleep
We've been through
So much
I've seen you shine
In times like these
Sometimes I wonder
If a guy like me
Could ever
Make you happy
As happy
As you deserve
You say
You love me
Don't know what for
As a friend
Or whatever
I don't know
Anymore
But lately
I wanted
Something more
What if
I told you
What kind
Of mess
Would that make
It's never
The right time
Maybe
It's a big mistake
So I look
For reasons
Any excuse
To talk to you
Because
All those moments
Are the things
That get me through
So I
Keep it hidden
I'm not sure if
That's good
Or bad
But lately I get
La filer à l'anglaise
And it's gotten
Kind of sad
So maybe I
Go to sleep
With records on
Some breakthrough's gotta happen
When side 2 of Tim comes on
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15. |
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Instrumental postlude
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